alala alala

I´m feeling lonely. It´s cold and snowy here, and I´m all alone.
I always thought I was stronger than everyone else, and that I could live somewhere far from everyone, alone, and be fine with it. And I can, but then I can´t really function. I can go on with my life living here, but I can´t concentrate on studying or homework because I feel the need to check my email, orkut and myspace every five minutes, hoping someone left me something. Or getting the Friends and Gilmore Girls DVDs out and watching other people live their lives, hear their voices, something.
I thought I just didn´t feel like studying, that watching whatever or surfing the net was more fun, but today I understood what´s keeping me from concentrating. I can´t sit down and do homework for over five minutes because it´s quiet, and I miss something. I always miss something. Either someone´s voice, or an email, or whatever, I always miss being in contact with someone. And that´s keeping me from concentrating and I don´t know what to do.